Yes, I do. I did. I quit 90-day challenge yesterday. It was a bad idea.
I even lost count of the days. Twenty something days or thirty?
It was fun at first, but later I felt pressured and stressed out, and studying Korean became something I was reluctant to do. I spent the whole day thinking, “I should study now because I have to do my challenge”, but I didn’t. So I studied right before bed time and I didn’t study very well because I was sleepy. And then I felt guilty because I didn’t really master the grammar rule but I felt I had to move on to the next one. And this was all because of the one-grammar-a-day challenge. A challenge that I decided myself. How dumb! I used to look forward to my study time. This is not fun anymore. This has got to stop!
So I quit.
I guess pressure, even internal pressure, does not work well for me. It took away all the joy of learning.
But quitting will make you a loser! I imagine someone says that to me.
I will reply, a loser? Me? Let me think about it. Hmm… There’s no way I’m a loser. I’m studying with an advanced grammar textbook that you can’t even begin to understand if you haven’t mastered basic and intermediate level grammar. Besides, people’s opinion about me? I really don’t mind.*See note.
I care more about my happiness and obviously this challenge doesn’t make me happy.
And so I quit after winning that argument with the imaginary person in my mind.
Today studying has become fun again for me. I’m so relieved. The study time has transformed from a chore… back to what it is supposed to be: an escapism, something I look forward to.
(Studying as an escapism? Is that even a good thing? Is that… healthy? I don’t know. It may be not, but it works great for my progress).
I’m not doing the 90-day challenge anymore but I think I will finish the grammar textbook in 90 days anyway. 화이팅!
*Feel free to have that opinion about me but please remember it doesn’t mean I won’t delete your rude comment, OK? I hope we’re clear that I’m the boss here. ###